Friday, September 30, 2011

PIPER


Every day after my daily drill, I return
Like a weary soldier, wanting peace within
And around me, an escape to my world;
I find him, without fail, every day waiting
To alleviate my worries, he plays; auburn
Fingers gliding over the pipe held between
His lips. Melody, melancholy, love, lust,
All flow from him to me as I sit; a cup of tea
On my lap. Easing body and mind at once.

My window wide open, lest I miss a note
He flourishes now and then. Untimely, surprising
Bundles of harmony matched with tap of
Tin with sticks, stones made by gay urchins
Who sometimes visit. I see them come and go
Like sea storms. The piper remains, playing
His soul to all. What he eats, sleeps, I know not.
Except, that is, of the food packages I accidently
Drop near his shabby blanket on the road.

He pauses, I hurry. And he begins a new tune.
People grown so used to him, he will for sure
Be missed, perhaps more than the impugn
Minister whose statue stands at the bazaar, it will soon
Rust more like the State, be rotten and doomed.

The piper pulls his blanket closer each day,
His emaciated limbs curling beneath. I am scared
Every day I return, fearing the black blanket
And the brown piper will be gone unprepared
Into the bliss. Leaving me in this untoward world.

I pray, O Lord, let the piper survive and his pipe keep playing
So that every day I shall look forward to something.
And when the ax hangs on his neck, i too shall accompany
With love of a fellow-being, prepare him for another journey.

Monday, September 26, 2011

TO YOU



Sure, I miss you; it’s so stupid to ask,
Your query transparent, a see-through mask.
How inviting, enticing, how everything,
You were always perfect, like a new morning.
You rose stronger every day, up from my heart.
Your words like melodies, songs towering Mozart.
Why then was it so short-lived, why agonizing poison
Seeping through veins, numbing my brain, why treason?
Bring back those moments; someone say I didn’t love in vain.
No one seems to hear… Can you hear? Time come!
Can I go? I know you’re not coming, can I run?
Can I live for myself finally? You can’t come, I know.
Your commitments betrayed. But can I go
Where I have no more pain, no love gone in vain.
Remember me, that I ask of you, just remember me as I am.

Thursday, September 22, 2011


Alas! Realization! The worth of a hug.
Had cared little, but earlier; been ages.
When unceasingly shadows unearthed;
The piety in crusade against wantonness.

Futile fantasies ruin self-discipline and give way
To repressed, suppressed shrieks of soul, every day.

Sigh! You multi-faceted brute! You dare haunt
My innocence. A pin-prick, of emptiness, haunts.
The pain trickling down, up, all around, coloring
The embers of a wasted eruption, still smoldering.

Gnawing, barely visible under smothered façade
Of seasonal emotions. But it pulsates apart….
The feeling of being full, warm, wanted.
Had cared little, but earlier; been ages.

Sunday, September 18, 2011


I wash, scrub, polish, I hide
Necessity, not want, to subside
The wounds, I have lost count
Of them. Deepening, corroding
Not just me, but all mine.

And what was mine? Not much
All there was, was and not is.
What slipped away? Not a hunch
Where I am slipping, falling
Endless. Should I cry? Laugh? What?

So many questions. Who will answer?
Incoherence caps self-pity, distraught
Me. I cannot even see myself proper.
No dreams, just sleepless haunt
Of the same face, I want to run.

Watch them and look at me. Different.
It had to be me again. The name
Does not leave my lips, succinct
Moments, memories mummify me.

See how willingly I submit…I do.
Do I have a choice? Not one.
Can I call my own? I wish…I do.
Is there anyone? Someone?

No, keep off. I am good alone.
I am for me, for my own.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

SURRENDER


Dark lanes, after hours, a wet alley,
Wild search with wide eyes. Probably
A wasteful fear gripping the soul,
Slippery ground, touchy heart drumming
Wild against the psyche. The holes
Pitiless pits in shadows, humming
The knell, beckoning to a new role.

Don a hideous robe, dark
With an all-consuming lamp
Stand and ruin, embark
The ship of reek, of damp
Fortunes gone shipwrecked.
Wild wild wind, mercy!
Scarce scarce, faulty tread
On a path so lonely..pity!

What do I do? What is left?
-surrender surrender!!
Why? Am I so bereft?
-are you not, you pretender!
Evil, gone worse, down the cleft.
Remorse now, then surrender.

CHERRY TREE


Pinning, pining, sensuous wonders
It grew from earth to sky heights,
Its leaves ever-fresh, Plunder
My garden, fill it with delights.
Smiling in its shade, carefree,
I sit, I love the cherry tree.

Groomed in my loving arms,
Lullabies became my love songs
That echoed yonder to far farms,
To the old lady whom cherries belong.
But still no fear, I sing carefree
Because I love that cherry tree.

I have an eye for the woodcutter.
He has an eye on the cherry tree
His axe of death cuts like butter
And I know he would show no mercy.
Before he comes I’ll gather
And hide my precious red cherries.

And when he leaves with his axe
In my own pretty little garden
I shall plant a new cherry plant
Which will blossom with my love
And grow as my new covenant.
It will be mine, my treasure trove.

With age I will be finally free
To love my beloved cherry tree.