Tuesday, July 26, 2011

THE WAR WITHIN THE PSYCHE

the war within one's psyche might go something like this-


I have a feeling that every emotion is very productive, especially if you are an artist. An artist can not only convey the feelings, but also make others feel it; can make others cry, smile, laugh, calm, enchant…can change a person, for the time being, and also forever. Art is emotion replicated, emotion produced and reproduced, has the capacity to generate new emotions that may be completely unrelated to the source emotion at the superficial level…
How then, can the emotion of rage, anger, frustration affect Art? Derogatory is the word; destructive. Feelings like rage and anger can never produce anything other than chaos – within and without the person.
When I started writing this piece, I was in blind rage, a feeling of destruction, a feeling to destruct something, and someone- a feeling so mad that it overshadowed the numbing sadness and grief all emanating from the same source- from me. Now that I have written a few words, I find the steam cooling off, but to what good? There is still the chilling grief waiting for me. I do not want to face it. I do not have the courage to face it alone but I have no sympathizer. I cannot expect anyone to pacify the drilling inside my psyche.
I have achieved what I wanted. I am no longer fuming. The agitation has now precipitated around my eyes. A sea rages below my scared eyelids that threaten to overflow its limit. But I cannot! I must be strong. Suppress it, kill it….there is no place for weakness in this world, if I have to be successful, I must sacrifice my tears, I must let go, I must learn from my experiences. But I don’t know, I really don’t know how long I can hold my wits together.
It is difficult to live life in two ways- to die within everyday and yet to live for this world, showing what you are not, what you can perhaps never be from the inside. Some say, a superficial damage can be repaired, but not the one that is corroded from within. I am scared. Earlier I had my comfort in prayers, now I have forsaken even that, and I am scared…

JUST THINK- "ALL COZ OF WHITE RUM"




(DON'T ASK ME WHY THIS..)

A leeway or a bad slip, I wonder
It was my choice to surrender
When I always prided my discipline
It slipped away, sad, broken by sin.
When fingers went numb to beautiful
Music, they danced in symphony
Ecstatic at the moment with gullible
Ease they entwined. New melody
Sneaked in the divine darkness,
Engulfing the clamor of thoughts
Sweet and burning, the harness
Held fast in mad, fitful knots.
“Don’t! No…Why?” All useless
And see now my sanity rots.
For want of foolish belongingness
Commitment was never in plot.

For fun, for this time now
And then to be parted, never
To see the other side. How
Easily said, how clever!

After all, it is just me today
And just for the time frame
I become the prize to say
Yes, I shall play your game.

And tomorrow shall never come.
And if it does (then you are a fool)
Just think, it was the white rum.
(And even then you are the fool).

Friday, July 22, 2011

Silent or Dumb?

                       
Some people just do not like to talk. not in the way of being anti-social or shy, but genuinely not liking a public show. Sadly, we have crashed on a blabbering world where whoever talks is a genius, whoever talks is knowledgeable, adorable and interesting and whoever prefers the quieter side is the polar opposite. Do note, that the quieter side referred to does not mean uninterested or mentally absent criteria. i strictly mean the section that is aware, knowing, attentive, and yet, with a preference of hearing out others' point of view and contributing only when asked. This need not necessarily even mean that the quiet are the shy ones, or lack confidence. I would like to tell about a very different reason for sealed lips. The need to allow the person in charge of the situation with some piece of mind, to become an attentive and peaceful audience.
When you push this into a classroom situation, it is hardly fair to call the silent part of class "dumb"; considering that this very "dumb" part of class is among the high scorers in academics, they do not disturb classes, have more than 90% attendance, care to stand up and wish the teacher, care to do assignments and projects in time, give sensible presentations and even help the somewhat "technically challenged" teachers set up a simple projector for their class. And on the contrary, the "non-dumb" part of class have a record of trouble making, high-teacher-BP, late assignments (or no assignments), walking out of exam halls, interrupting lectures with pranks and stupid questions that take the teacher 7 hours to explain, and so on...
Usually we have stories and movies saying "do not underestimate the fun-loving section of students, they are the real gems". But that really does not mean that you start undermining the "good-ones" as being lame, boring and dumb. it is just that the prefer partying, DJ, drinks and all after class hours. Sadly, here the situation is "ulta" and the joke is on the supposed Ideal students. sigh!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

"MOM" - By and "dedicated to" my awsomest friend Nick, For his dear Mom.




I learned to walk with her, now
I walk alone, only somehow
This pain hollow walks with me
In vain I tried to kill it
And then lived in a mirage
Saying the pain is but, an envisage.
Only when it ate through my soul
I realized it won’t leave me whole
I am flipping, I need a way out
Even death would not help, I doubt.
and if death ws d only way out of it,
I want this haunting pain to end
Find solace unto my first friend
Mom would you not hold me again
"Mom" the word itself soothes the pain.
When i cry my tears lost in time,
Mom could have seen them arrive
I stand at a parting not knowing the way
"Mom" you alone can bring light today,
And forever i belong in your arms
Mom hug me again, save from all harm
I am yours forever, make me a child again
Mom come and ease my pain.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

You Have a Few Years

It is bad, they keep saying,
To want for money.
To do something for yourself?
No, you are a woman, honey!
You have but a few years
Study, learn, earn, that’s it.
You have but a few years
You need to get married,
And then begins a new race.
He will want kids and They
Will want grandchildren in haste.
You will live their way.
Why you dream so tall?
You naïve! Just a few years left!
Care, so you don’t fall
Prey to ambition wretched.
Be a woman your body wants,
Move gracefully as expected.
Do not try to wear pants,
If you want to be protected.
Dear, alas! You are a woman. Do not try
To be what you want, now, don’t cry,
You have a few years left, then you cry.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

FREEDOM OF PRESS (SHARING IDEAS OF CHETHAN KUMAR)

A PROFESSIONAL TAKE ON THE FREEDOM OF PRESS
(QUOTING CHETHAN KUMAR ON F.O.P)
(CHETHAN KUMAR IS A DEFENSE JOURNALIST WORKING WITH THE DECCAN HERALD, BANGALORE, AND HE HAS A GOOD EXPERIENCE AS A REPORTER.)
Freedom of press is a concept or philosophy that guarantees freedom of speech and expression through various media- both electronic and otherwise publishing. This implies to keeping the media free from the reach of an overbearing or an overreaching government. There is no exclusive clause for the “freedom of press” in the Indian constitution but the issue is covered under Article 19(i)(a) of the constitution that deals with the freedom of speech and expression. It says, “Everyone has the right to freedom of opinion and expression, this includes freedom to hold opinions without interference and to seek, receive and impart information and ideas through any media and regardless of frontiers.”
From the 1799 Press Regulations by Lord Wellesley to modern day cases like the case between Menka Gandhi and the Union of India, Freedom of Press has been maintained with a lot of fluidity and flexibility to suit both, the governments and the public at large. A colonial experience had made Indians understand the value of a free Press. From the time when the constitution of India provided freedom of speech and expression, till date, there have been several cases that have made the government cover the loopholes in the Law and provide increased access to the media. Thus, the guardians of the freedom of press in a democracy like India are both, the constitution and the Supreme Court.
Mr. Chethan Kumar, a staff reporter at Deccan Herald, Bangalore has been with Deccan Herald for over three years and his professional interest lies in Defense Journalism. He covers everything that happens in the Defense sector, from new policies to new planes and missiles. Having spent years as a reporter, Chethan has had a very good experience with Freedom of Press in India and has a very positive outlook towards the extent of liberty accredited to journalists in India.
He feels that Freedom of Press is an extension of the right of expression provided in the Indian constitution and an essential part of the democracy; essential because it helps in putting in place “public” checks and balances. Media acts as the fourth pillar, or the fourth estate of a democratic setup and certain provisions by the state helps it to act as a connection between the government and the public (in any form of government), to keep check on the government and also act as a vehicle of information and opinions for both, the government and the public.
In India, the scene has been very interesting. Media has made news and has been in news for all reasons. In several cases, the Press has been the pioneer of change in the society and government, for example the role of media in bringing about the resignation of Haryana minister Vinod Sharma. Especially after the privatization of the media sector, there has been a lot of improvement in media setup in the country. The government has had to have put up with a lot more scrutiny and criticism and the public is openly reaching out to the government for answers through media. Chethan Kumar says that unlike some of its immediate neighbors, India has seen increasing respect to the freedom of Press guaranteed by the constitution and in some sense, has protected the provisions made for the Press. There have been cases filed against various media organizations, but it has always brought a positive change in the scenario without much ado.

To quote Chethan Kumar, “The freedom we are talking about, as I have noted, is an extension of a right.  So more than it empowering the press, which it anyway probably does, it supplements it.” The provisions provided for the Press for its smooth functioning supplement or add on to the effective working of the press in a democracy. Today media or the Press has become a brand in itself that can be worn with pride, and media persons definitely enjoy numerous rights, benefits, access, influences and similar such causes outside the constitution that help them get hold of valuable and worthwhile information with better ease. The freedom of Press in fact helps the Press penetrate to the other side of the otherwise semi-permeable or non-permeable sections of information.
But unfortunately, Freedom of Press does not sustain the Press above political pressures. Chethan emphasizes on the effect of politics in the functioning of the Press and says that everything is politics. In democracy the politics of saving “freedom of press” to suit their (the political parties) interests and do otherwise in another context. And similarly, in other forms of governance, there are other political pressures.” Positive publicity is the need of the hour, with media becoming so vibrant, dynamic and uncontrollable, and this has to be obtained by hook or by crook. It is common knowledge about some media organizations having a slant towards a particular political party. The give-and-take relationship that media has to maintain for its survival (advertisements), and for the very reason of its physical survival (Tehelka office sabotage after it brought out bribery in Best Bakery Fire case), the organizations have to bow down to political pressures.
Excess of political pressure or excess of freedom, both could be hazardous for a democracy and hence, the reasonable restrictions in Article 19(ii) of the Indian constitution. Apart from these, there are a lot of limitations put on the people on top, the very people who frame and execute these laws. No one is above the law, as Mr. Chethan Kumar says; some of the major limitations come from within newspaper/television offices. Each organization also has its own work policies and they become laws for the media persons working as a part of that organization. This in itself is a restriction, a limitation on the freedom of speech and expression of an individual. Not only in India, nowhere in the world there exists a concept of absolute freedom of press. Indeed, absolute freedom of press is not a pragmatic ideology. There have been umpteen cases where the intervention of media has caused irreparable damage. For example, the 2008 Mumbai attacks. News channels were giving an enthusiastic chronological coverage to the terror events and were also broadcasting movements and activities of the police and the defense, conveniently forgetting that the terrorists could have easy access to all these information and that could help them. For reasons like these, there has to be a regulatory parameter that draws a line where the freedom of press ends or where the responsibility towards the country at large is more important than the responsibility as a media person.
But, we cannot completely ignore that in some cases unreasonable restrictions are imposed on the Press. So what is the solution? Indian Express filed a case, where the class legislation of Working Journalists Act was under attack, but the court ruled in favor of the government and upheld the validity of the Act. According to Chethan Kumar, “An exclusive clause of freedom of Press is not an answer to unreasonable limitations for what we have is already quite liberal, although less in comparison to certain western countries.” Countries like UK and US have a very libertarian Press. Chethan further says, “just like our bank laws that saved us during the recent recession, Press laws, restrictions or limitations will prevent the media from completely losing out to market pressures, which is a trend already being witnessed.” He also says that what we have in place as freedom of Press in India is apt and adequate. There is no need to look out for amendments as of now if only we exercise what we already have in place in an effective, efficient and honest way.
Another important thing to be considered is, do the allowances made for the Press in India help the journalists to pursue their profession without hindrances and do the media people enjoy the available freedom of press? There is a very vague distinction between what is ethical and what is necessary. Though both the categories are not mutually exclusive, the distinction remains. Then again, these criteria are not rigid. They keep on shape-shifting. What is ethical today might seem blasphemous tomorrow. Necessities too change over time and context. Chethan says that sometimes journalists do not enjoy the freedom of Press guaranteed to them, but it is a rare occurrence. And the reason why we do not have freedom in such cases is a result of varied and complex reasons that cannot be pin-pointed to a particular reason, time or context.
In India a journalist has freedom to access information of public interest, can criticize, assert and comment but his or her freedom extends only as much as that of any ordinary citizen. There are no exclusive provisions for journalists. The Press acts as a watchdog in the democracy within the limitations set by freedom of Press and reasonable restrictions. Though by international standards, the degree of freedom enjoyed by the Press in India is poor, there are plus points to that too, for it restrains media from getting out of hand and creating public unrest. In spite of restrictions and political pressure, journalists in India find the considerations given by the constitution reasonable and adequate rather than unnecessary. If only the existing clauses are exercised well, there can be smooth symbiotic functioning of the government and media.

Friday, July 1, 2011

PONDER..does light have a concept?

In my Postcolonial Class, we somehow touched upon concepts and theories. my lecturer was saying about how some things cannot be conceptualized. he gave an example of light. he asked us, "what is the concept of light."
Some nerds replied "light is the absence of darkness", which, i suppose, is what Albert Einstein said in class and got thupped for.
Well, our lecturer is way better. He took a moment to form the best way to put his point n came back on us with a closed book and said," if light is the absence of darkness, then there should be light between the pages of this book because there is definitely no space for darkness to exist between these pages!". So what we said about light (and what friend Einstein mentioned so long ago) was rubbish, n so there was no concept about light.

well, what an answer! OK, i agree, maybe light does not have a concept. but the one that my lecturer gave back with no darkness between the pages of a closed book, was a neat trick.
OBJECTION MILORD!
Well, he said darkness cannot exist between those pages because there was no space for darkness to exist. so how can light exist without space? As far as i know, the only thing that can exist in the absence of space is "spacelessness". Even for our ideas and dreams, we create an abstract or imaginary space. So my counterargument or rather a rephrasing of the Einstien statement would be that "light is something (if it can be called a thing) that occupies space in the absence of darkness.

Hey, i do not pretend to have any idea about the concept of Light. I have always been a loser in Physics. As far as i am concerned, light (tube-light, to be precise) is a 24-hour necessity in my ever-dark-without-electricity room. All i want now is, some physics-literate person to tell me what would be the answer to the title of my post, and in that process, help me to....Ponder(or stop pondering) about light.